Well, not all day was tough but from 3pm today until bed time was.  My kids go to school across the street from our church.  One girl is 14 and the other is 11.   They go to the Rock Church (check out www.pkmo.wordpress.com for one of the teachers).   Just as soon as they got picked up today at 3pm, my wife was on the phone with me and they were all going at it like only 3 women in a van can do it.  (I am so glad I am a guy).  So, this one wants this, that one wants that….homework plans are laid out,…they want to go on the internet and when we are not home, that is usually forbidden.  But now one of them needs to download a song for Praise Band practice for tonight before church so I allow it.  I rush home at 540 pm, tired, hungry, wore out and need to be at church at 6pm for practice and 7pm for church….and they are still at it.  Get both girls loaded up and leave my wife and 3 year old son at home…we strike out for church….but I find out that my 11 year old is not finished with her homework.  The 14 year old reminds me that I told the 11 year old several times to do it but……

Well, on the way to 6pm practice, I decided to take the 11 year old back home and drop her off to do her homework.  As I left the older one at church for Praise Band practice, I turned around to go home with the younger one.  She began to cry and cry and apologize for not being honest about finishing her homework and begged for forgiveness…….please daddy,….pleeeeeaaaassssseeee.  But I was mad and disappointed that she had not leveled with me.  I really, deep down, wanted to punish her for the lack of maturity, the lack of respect she showed me and the lack of responsibility.  I also began to think, as I was very tired and hungry…..just how being a dad was tough today.  Then, of course, the Holy Spirit began to speak to me.

I had to ask myself, how many times…….JUST TODAY that I had not respected God with my thoughts.  How many times….JUST TODAY that I had not shown maturity.  How many times,…JUST TODAY that I had not acted responsibly with my thoughts, actions and words..Ouch.  God, I hate it when that happens, that God exposes my stuff when I am right smack dab in the middle of judging someone else. So I began to think about how Peter, in Matthew 18, asked Jesus how many times that he should forgive someone when they sinned against him.  Jesus said, a whole bunch..  I remember how Jesus, in Luke 6:37-38 was talking about forgiveness and He said that if you don’t judge, you won’t be judged and that the measure in which you forgive, will be given back to you, pressed down shaken together and running over.

So I forgave her.  Had her get her book assignment and let her bring it to church to read before prayer.  I told her I forgave her, and I really did.  I am so glad that God forgives me/us, that same way.  He just keeps on forgiving us.  I wonder how God feels as a dad sometimes?  Glad he can handle it. 

Pastor Louie

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